I kind of feel the same way, if I total totally involve myself in this woe, I tend to loose the dedication I need to stick with it. But you've done great and at least it was only 18 and not the whole 41, I think together all of us can reach goal.

SO today is my due date for my twins, I woke up and almost orgot about it. I dont know if I can make it through the whole day without stuffing my emtions, but I am hoping I will. DH and I decided today would be the day we take apart the nursery, another emotional task I'v been delaying but theres only so many times you can walk by a closed door in your own house. So wish me luck my friends.