chocolate
Fri, Dec-06-02, 04:50
This is going to be long and boring but you’re welcome to read it and any comments will be appreciated. If you don’t have the stomach for it I won’t be offended!! :D
After ages of dieting with varying success, last night I had a long think and a conscience check and this is what I came up with. The WOE that I’ve managed to stick to for the longest with no cheating (even at mega-luncheons) has been CAD. Note that I’ve tried them all from Atkins to PP, from Scarsdale to WW, from starvation to trying to eat “normally”. They just don’t work for me. So CAD it is. So I had better make it work for me!!
The first time I tried CAD it was a binge at RM and guilt trips afterwards :( . The second time I tried CAD I stopped bingeing but ate the most unhealthy foods possible, always overdid it and was perennially digesting (but it wasn’t a real binge, cause believe me, when I binge I can beat the best!! ;) ). For all these reasons I didn’t lose any weight but I didn’t gain either :thup: . Then TOM came with PMS and I spent 3 days bawling, feeling fat and ugly and saying the usual: I’ll never be as thin as I’d really like, I’ll always have a butt 2 sizes bigger than the rest of me, I’ve tried so hard blablabla. Then last night I had a real good conscience check and decided to kick some butt (mine!!) and I have decided that it’s really time to take this WOE as a long term thing, and not a way to eat like a pig without putting on weight, and then bawling about it and saying that nothing works. I must not only eat to satisfy my palate but also my body’s needs and my health. So I wrote down the PROS and CONS of this woe and this is what I came up with:
PROS
-Blood sugar is stable and under control
-I’m never hungry and I never get the shakes
-Bloating, stomach cramps, and horrible noises in my tummy have stopped completely
-I really enjoy carbs instead of eating them compulsively without tasting them
-I feel in control
-My self esteem has soared
-Food is not my only thought
-I digest
CONS
I really couldn’t come up with one!!! Not one!!! Really!!!
So this is my pledge to myself, which I’m making publicly :
1. I’m going to do CAD because it’s the only woe that works for me
2. I’m going to eat healthy foods like fruit and yoghurt and veggies and healthy proteins at my RM instead of making it an excuse to eat sugary junk food and fill up on it. Bad carbs will be exceptions, not the rule.
3. I realize that calories DO count for me, so I’ll decide on a calorie level and stick to it.
4. I’ll drink my water, which I haven’t been so great at either!!
Accepting CAD with my body, my brain and my heart has taken quite a few steps because it’s hard to go against the grain (no pun intended) of what we have always been taught, but I truly feel that finally I have taken the final step towards belief and acceptance of my carb problem and of this woe.
I have made this promise to myself, it’s not the usual new year’s resolution that gets broken on the 3rd of January. I need your help (I’m not proud) because nobody believes in this but me. I’ll change, I will lose weight, this will work for me and others will see, but in the meantime I need your support.
For those of you who have got this far, thanks for reading. I guess I wrote this out more for myself than for anyone else, just to get it down and get it out and to be able to admit that this is the only way for me to have any control over my life. I’ll re-read it every time I start to doubt.
Thanks again
Choc
After ages of dieting with varying success, last night I had a long think and a conscience check and this is what I came up with. The WOE that I’ve managed to stick to for the longest with no cheating (even at mega-luncheons) has been CAD. Note that I’ve tried them all from Atkins to PP, from Scarsdale to WW, from starvation to trying to eat “normally”. They just don’t work for me. So CAD it is. So I had better make it work for me!!
The first time I tried CAD it was a binge at RM and guilt trips afterwards :( . The second time I tried CAD I stopped bingeing but ate the most unhealthy foods possible, always overdid it and was perennially digesting (but it wasn’t a real binge, cause believe me, when I binge I can beat the best!! ;) ). For all these reasons I didn’t lose any weight but I didn’t gain either :thup: . Then TOM came with PMS and I spent 3 days bawling, feeling fat and ugly and saying the usual: I’ll never be as thin as I’d really like, I’ll always have a butt 2 sizes bigger than the rest of me, I’ve tried so hard blablabla. Then last night I had a real good conscience check and decided to kick some butt (mine!!) and I have decided that it’s really time to take this WOE as a long term thing, and not a way to eat like a pig without putting on weight, and then bawling about it and saying that nothing works. I must not only eat to satisfy my palate but also my body’s needs and my health. So I wrote down the PROS and CONS of this woe and this is what I came up with:
PROS
-Blood sugar is stable and under control
-I’m never hungry and I never get the shakes
-Bloating, stomach cramps, and horrible noises in my tummy have stopped completely
-I really enjoy carbs instead of eating them compulsively without tasting them
-I feel in control
-My self esteem has soared
-Food is not my only thought
-I digest
CONS
I really couldn’t come up with one!!! Not one!!! Really!!!
So this is my pledge to myself, which I’m making publicly :
1. I’m going to do CAD because it’s the only woe that works for me
2. I’m going to eat healthy foods like fruit and yoghurt and veggies and healthy proteins at my RM instead of making it an excuse to eat sugary junk food and fill up on it. Bad carbs will be exceptions, not the rule.
3. I realize that calories DO count for me, so I’ll decide on a calorie level and stick to it.
4. I’ll drink my water, which I haven’t been so great at either!!
Accepting CAD with my body, my brain and my heart has taken quite a few steps because it’s hard to go against the grain (no pun intended) of what we have always been taught, but I truly feel that finally I have taken the final step towards belief and acceptance of my carb problem and of this woe.
I have made this promise to myself, it’s not the usual new year’s resolution that gets broken on the 3rd of January. I need your help (I’m not proud) because nobody believes in this but me. I’ll change, I will lose weight, this will work for me and others will see, but in the meantime I need your support.
For those of you who have got this far, thanks for reading. I guess I wrote this out more for myself than for anyone else, just to get it down and get it out and to be able to admit that this is the only way for me to have any control over my life. I’ll re-read it every time I start to doubt.
Thanks again
Choc