anyone else starting college/grad sch. this fall?

[kypraia]

Hi!

I'm just about to start at a new college this fall, and I was wondering if anyone else is in the same boat--talk about something to stress over and make you lose your focus! I'm so worried about doing well at school that I'm afraid I might be losing my LC momentum.

I'd like to hear from others who are dealing with this kind of icky stress right now, maybe we can help each other out!

Best of luck!!!
Kyp.

[Heidi]

Hi,

I'm kind of in the same situation, I am going into my seventh year of college. I am there after all of this time because I had to work a lot of hours at first and didn't put school first and I have two majors, a minor and a program to complete. Anyhow I would love to keep in touch and offer you some support. I tried atkins in April and after two excruciating periods I stopped but now I have had enough of being overweight and I'm trying it again. It's honestly not that difficult to keep up at school, I have lots of omelettes and lots of salads, may be boring but it keeps me on track.

Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi!
It feels weird typing that, because in fact my name is Heidi too. Well, that explains why I didn't get Heidi as a username :spin:

I understand about all the years of college, since this is my fifth year. I graduated in May and immediately started in on a grad program which means I have another....five....six...who knows how many more years. Sigh.

I mostly eat eggs, chicken, and veggies. My main problem is that I'm a horrible cook. I spent my 3rd year of college eating pasta and nothing else because it was cheap and I liked it and I could cook it, and it left me in a pretty bad state. So now that I moved to a new city and I'm starting over essentially, I wanted to get my weight under control. Also I'm so tired of not being in shape, not being able to do the things I want to do because I don't have the strength.

I start my new school on Monday, wish me luck!!
When does your fall semester start? Are you living on your own with a kitchen? I have my own apt for the first time and it's such a relief to be in control of what I eat (I had cafeteria food for three years!)

:wave: Heidi #2

[Heidi]

I can't believe your name is Heidi too, what a small world!!

anyhow I do live on my own with my boyfriend, the only problem with this was that he is a great cook and I pretty much gained my weight because of it. He is being extremely understanding toward this diet and what I cannot eat and is cooking things for both of us without the carbs. He is tall and thin and can't gain an ounce, he had to eat five meals a day to reach 200 pounds but he's changing his lifestyle for me, at least while he is home.

In the meantime school hasn't really ever stopped for me this year, since I took a break from working I took summer classes and they finally ended today. My fall semester begins I believe around the 3rd of Sept and I should be graduating soon, if I don't take on any more majors. I hope to go immediately to graduate school or a phd program as well. Where do you go, what are you taking up? I go to UMass Boston right now because it is affordable and that was very attractive in a school because I knew I wanted to further my education and accumulating over 100 k in loans in undergrad just wasn't worth it.

anyways going back to this different way of life, it works. My parents both tried it immediately after my first attempt back in April and my mother lost 30 so far and my father lost 40, they both look great. It took them months but what I keep saying to myself it the time is going to pass anyways and eventually I'll look the way I did in high school. I wish I realized back then that I looked good, maybe I wouldn't have been so miserable always trying to get smaller.

well hope you have a good weekend
and
good luck
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,
That's so cool that you're in Boston--I'm in Providence :) I'm starting this PhD program in Classics at Brown, and it all starts next week, so I am VERY nervous. What's your field? Two majors, a minor, and a program. Sheesh.

I totally understand about the boyfriend. Mine doesn't live with me, (he lives in NYC) but he visits every weekend. He's also a good cook, and he's from Greece and cooks delicious and very high-carb Greek food. I had to put a stop to that recently, (I only started LC-ing three weeks ago) and I miss it. He's very supportive, especially since he didn't see me for two weeks, and when he finally saw me, I weighed 10 lbs less, and he said he could tell. I can't tell, of course! but it was great when he said "Wow!"

The hardest thing for me is staying with my exercise program. I've never worked out seriously before in my life! I'm doing cardio and weights, and I definitely prefer the weights. I hate the icky sweaty breathless cardio feeling.

The thing that made me do this was 1) I realized I've never weighed this much in my life and it scared me 2) I was worried about my health because diabetes runs in my family and 3) next summer Brown is letting me spend the summer traveling around Greece--which includes the beach!!! and I want to lose my weight by the time I go there, which should be end of May, 2003. So that gives me like nine more months to lose...gasp... seventy pounds. Yikes. If I can lose about eight a month, I can do it. That's a lot, but even if I can't , as long as I stick with it, I'll be lighter than I am now.

When did you start Atkins this time? I've only been doing Protein Power for three weeks, but it's starting to get a little boring. And--this is a good question for a fellow student: Did you notice when you started LC-ing that your grocery bills went up a lot? I used to spend like $50/month on food, now it's $50/week. Aaaahhh!

hmmm I've rambled a bit. Well I hope you have a good weekend too!

:D Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi,

Currenly my majors are psychology and political science with a minor in economics and a program in public policy. I hope to go to either a graduate or phd program in clinical psychology, looking at BU, Suffolk and a few others right now because I really don't want to move, I guess I've limited myself but it's what you make of it, right! I give you credit for getting a phd in classics, I dated a Greek man for a while and he decided to take Greek, was convinced that since he was fluent it would be a piece of cake, instead he was lost after only a couple of weeks. What do you hope to do?

I don't blame you for wanting to lose weight too, I went to Greece, actually with the Greek boyfriend, and it was incredible. I completely recommend it. I would love to go back but it is just so expensive. He had a lot of family there but we still spent a lot and of course, he liked to show off like most Greek men do and spent a lot because of that as well. We visited the Cyclades islands, not sure if I spelled that correctly, been a long time, but we went to Santorini, Mykonos, Ios, Paros, Antiparos and some others and I can't think of the one that is the archaelogical site off of Mykonos which is absolutely incredible. You will have an incredible time and losing weight will help because I did for it and had so much more fun because of it. The Greek food helped me gain the weight then I lost it for the trip then I gained it again when we broke up and then I gained more when I met my new bf.

Sorry I'm rambling, been on my computer all day and it is so nice to do something other than medical ethics issues.

anyways I just started atkins last thursday, was not doing it completely correctly because I have a sore spot for those expensive carbolite bars that have nuts in them that you can't have on induction. So as a result I have started induction again. My grocery bills have definitely increased, prior to the diet I could get by on cheap stuff but now I have to purchase steaks and between my boyfriend and I we go through a lot of them each week.

I also wanted to say that my boyfriend's cousin is attending Brown for his second year. He is around 26 and just got out of the special forces a couple of years ago and is going there for I believe marine anthropology or something similar.

well have a good night
Heidi

want a good laugh, my boyfriend and I decided to go to Las Vegas a couple of weeks ago and because I feel so self conscious I decided to go for a body wrap which guarantees one to lose inches. I was so excited but it was honestly the stupidest thing I have ever done. I not only wasted over a hundred dollars but I only lost supposedly 7 inches which we are convinced was simply perspired away. I swear as soon as you become properly hydrated again the inches reappear. So word of advice, stick to Atkins, don't do any body wraps. Plus I looked absolutely hideous wrapped up!

[kypraia]

Hey Heidi!
That is so coincidental that you also had a Greek boyfriend! I am SO excited to go to Greece. I've actually been there before, twice, and I cannot wait to go back. I was so surprised when you said you went to Antiparos, because I stayed there last summer in this tiny little "village" (i.e., 4 houses, 2 churches) called Soros--well the reason I was there was because I was on a team of excavators at another island close to Antiparos called Despotiko. It was the first and only time I've done an excavation but it was AMAZING. (Incidentally, after the dig I had never been in better shape in my whole life, so it was especially disappointing when I lost that!)

I've been to a bunch of islands, but not enough for me. I spent my spring semester of my junior year studying in Athens, and spent the entire summer of 2001 traveling around to the islands (plus all the weekends all semester long). And in the summer of 1999 I took two classes, one in Athens and one in Paros. I haven't been to Delos, which I think is the archaeological island you saw, or Ios, isn't that the crazy party island? I went to Mykonos with some Greek-American girls (they are way into partying!) and that was SO fun! OK can't you tell what a great time I am having reminiscing about the islands!!!

As far as being expensive, yeah I know. Especially because they have such nice clothes (not to worry-they don't come in my size :( ) and because I'm always in the mood to travel--the best way is definitely to stay w/ someone you know, or to do the study abroad thing which is actually a very good value--it was less expensive than tuition at my college, and I got a far better experience out of Greece than I ever got out of Washington, DC. (I did u-grad at Georgetown).

My boyfriend is Greek but he's actually from Cyprus and I visited his island and let me tell you it is nothing like Greece. It is very beautiful though.

To answer your question, what I hope to do with my classics degree. I'd love to be a classics professor at a college. I know that's tough to accomplish in a field that graduates 20 times as many PhDs as there are jobs, but I never give up hope!!

If you're looking at grad/PhD programs you can probably afford to be more picky about location than I could, since there just aren't that many grad schools that have Classics departments.

Well since we are both just starting out with the diet, I hope we can stick to it. I am really determined to do this, I am NOT going to quit.

My parents both did the Atkins diet too--my dad has diabetes so he really had no choice. He lost 60 pounds, and my mom lost like 15. So I know it works, I have the same kind of proof you have. So that means we can do this!!!

Are you doing exercise? Like I said, that's the toughest for me. Ok, time to get off the computer! Talk to you soon!
:wave: Heidi

[Heidi]

this is absolutely amazing how much we have in common, thank you for remembering what island that was too, Delos was incredible, so interesting and amazing to think and realize what they were capable of creating thousands of years ago. It sounds like you have experienced so much too, sounds like you really are doing what you want to do and that was always tough for me to do because I have always been so concerned about what everyone else thought because I have always been so self-conscious. I am beginning to realize how much I have missed out on because of my weight.

anyhow I will start exercising soon, hopefully, I planned on doing it from the start because I own a treadmill, the ab doer, an exercise back and an array of tapes but I have to get motivated and I can't be motivated until I finish these damn papers. I'm so sick of papers!


well once again sorry for rambling, it's late and I'm trying to finish these papers and I having a difficult time concentrating thinking about the fun I had in Greece. That party island was a lot of fun too, we went there for a couple of days and hit all of the clubs and literally stumbled back to our hotel. I remember getting so drunk at the Hard Rock there and then trying to get ready for the next day was absolute torture because check out was bright and early. I'd love to go back, so many great memories (and some not so great ones, my boyfriend wasn't the best, kind of controlling)

well if it is easier you can email me at the following
heidi.conneely~att.net

have a good night
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,
Okay I promise after this I will get off the computer and go to sleep. But I just have to agree--we have a ton in common!! When you're ready to start exercising, let's try to motivate each other. I have tons of equipment (if you want a run-down, check out my journal under K-L) and of course it doesn't do a whole lot if you don't use it. I put my exercise stuff in my bedroom for two reasons: 1) it's the only room with air conditioning, and I cannot live without AC, and 2) if it's in front of my face, I'm more likely to do it. It does make my bedroom a little cramped, and my boyfriend made a comment about how it doesn't look very romantic, but hey, it's all for the best.

One thing about exercising that seems to hold true for me is that if I stop doing it for one day, I'll never start again. When I started working out, one of the things I did every day was go for a walk. Well that was fine for about 10 days, and then it was very hot outside, so I didn't go. And guess what? It's cooled down, but I haven't walked since then! So I am extremely careful not to skip a day. Most people say working out 7 days a week is too much, and I completely understand their point, but if I don't work out every day, I'll never pick up after a day off. I just know it. So I've worked out every doggone day for the past 30 days (although I do have light days that are just cardio) and that is officially the longest time in my whole life (if you don't count mandatory gym class) that I have been active! I'm not sure it helps with weight loss, because you build muscle, but it does help with fat loss, which is all that really matters.

And as for papers...no...I don't want to think about papers!! But if you are suffering, I should tell you that when my brother and I were in high school we had this thing we called The Theory of Infinite Procrastination, which says that "No matter how much you put something off, you'll still get it done by the time it's due." It is absolutely true and never fails.

Ok, bedtime. I'm staying up too late and getting up too late, and I need to change my sleeping habits. It's like I'm jet-lagged!

If you want to email me it's heidifbr~hotmail.com, or AIM me at Heidi20002 (with three zeroes). I am sure I'll be on this forum too because I am becoming addicted to it!

Night-night,
Heidi

[Heidi]

good morning,


the procrastination theory is completely true, the assignment always gets done but I have to admit, I think I'm burnt out, I haven't worked in over 8 months but I have been taking classes without a break since last summer and I don't think I can take it anymore, I have a short break until the fall semester begins and I think I really need it. In the meantime I will be preparing for another course today by going to training for it. After a while, I don't know about you, but college becomes a game, who can have the best recommendations by the most prestigious professors and who can have the most and best internships. I wasn't able to compete in the past because I didn't get any substantial financial aid and because I'm finally considered independent I am getting some good money and able to play catch-up. I'm just so sick of it already, I guess it'll be worth it when I have my own practice, right.

anyhow I totally agree with the exercise theory, I have to also do it every day, no matter what time it is, or I'll never do it again. I was making myself do the treadmill for at least 40" a day but then it also got too hot and the ac couldn't even help that in my house.

well I will try you tonight on aim, I'll probably be home since boyfriend worked last night installing a network for a client and he's exhausted.

I also wanted to see if you had ever been to Naxos? I completely forgot to mention that island for some reason. We predominantly stayed there because his father had a house there, it had absolutely beautiful beaches but then again most of the Greek islands had beautiful beaches!!

I should get going, I need to get ready and motivated for this thing today. talk to you tonight.

also motivating eachother sounds great, I really need to stick to this, not only for my relationship but for me as well.

have a good day
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,

I have been to Naxos (!!!), although only for three or four days. I went there last spring when my mom came to visit me in Greece. She loved Naxos, in fact it was her favorite island! I loved it too, and I think that is where I officially got my tan last summer. I definitely would have liked to spend more time there. I remember that they have the most delicious olives there, I don't know if they're famous but they should be. We left Naxos and took the little ferry to Amorgos, which is far less popular and SO beautiful. I think the only way to get to Amorgos is from Athens or from Naxos. Oh---I just remembered my favorite thing about Naxos--strolling along that strip by the port with all the restaurants and cafes, all the way out to the Apollo Gate and back! Also the first time I ever ate goat! You guessed it--tastes like chicken. And the Naxos Archeological Museum is amazing, if you walk the 15 miles straight uphill to get to it!

I know what you mean about school. I've been lucky to study abroad for two semesters (did I mention I was in Italy in the fall of 2000--I might have forgotten that) but that was good because it gave me time away from the department and also new professors who were having fun in Italy/Greece and were much more laid back. At Georgetown, it's Prof. So-and-so, but in Italy our professors were "Harry" and "Gary" and "Valentina" so it was definitely a more relaxed way to study. We even went to bars w/ our professors, which would never happen at Georgetown, at least not w/ me. I'm kind of intimidated by them. As for the other students, I consider myself lucky that there were only 10 classics majors in my year. On the other hand, some of the kids were brutal in class, trying to show how smart they were, and asking those annoying questions that are really just a way to prove they know something. I don't do that, so I used to worry that the profs wouldn't notice me. Of course in the end they hated the cocky kids.

About financial aid, I totally know what you mean. As soon as I could check "grad student/independent" I no longer had to worry about falling into that category of "your parents make too much money, even though it's clearly not enough to pay your tuition ha ha ha ha ha" . Brown is paying for everything, provided I am "making good progress." That's another little piece of pressure!

Ok, I'm off to make a delicious and healthy LC lunch--tuna fish and salad! I'm always online so I'm sure I'll see you on IM.

Ciao,
Heidi

[Heidi]

I think we went to Amorgos too, Naxos was great though, I loved the beaches and the strip, I remember feeding the fish on the pier too with that circular bread (can't remember the name and you probably think it's a little strange to feed fish!) but it was a trip to remember. As for school I am in the exact same boat, couldn't bother my parents for money because they had other mouths to feed but couldn't get substantial financial aid because my expected family contribution was around 50 thousand a year! It felt great when I got enough in loans to pay for school and myself this year, of course I will have to live on almost nothing but it builds character, right!

In the meantime the graduate school process is killing me, there are some really interesting programs at Suffolk and BU and it would also be great to go there because with a great reputation if one did well in either of them they would almost be guaranteed acceptance to either of their phd programs, which is constantly on my mind. I am just always worrying about something.

Anyways sorry I didn't get on AIM last night, fell asleep almost immediately when I got home and then honestly just wanted to watch tv and relax.
Hope you have a good day
Heidi

[kypraia]

I feel your pain about grad school. I think the application process was the worst four months of my life. Other stresses were involved but even by itself it's the worst. Is there any way you can just apply for a PhD program without applying for the master's program? At Brown, e.g., I applied for the combined MA/PhD program (5-6 yrs) and I don't have to worry about applying to another school in one year, after my first year of MA. I don't know if this works for all majors, but I'm pretty sure it works for most of the humanities and social sciences. Any school that has a PhD program probably would let you do that. Of course, I could be talking through my hat, since I didn't research anything except my own major. But if you didn't notice (how could you not!) I am one of those people who is always and forever giving unsolicited advice. So just ignore it if you want!!!

I totally ate too much today! I don't think I overdid the carbs, just the calories. And it's only 2:45!

I definitely agree that feeding the fish is an enjoyable activity. However, in Greece anyway, eating the fish can be an equally enjoyable activity!! The best fish I've ever had would be Greek swordfish, or maybe crunchy kalamarakia right out of the sea.....mmmm.....there's a Whole Foods supermarket in town, and they sell fresh calamari and it occurred to me that I could learn how to make it. I went to look at it and it was so gross...well, I'll just keep getting it at the Greek restaurant. I wish I could get over my distaste for raw meat. I really don't like fishing things out of chickens. I'm much happier with a safe can of tuna fish :)

Oh well, I suppose my culinary habits will mature with practice and time.

Have a lovely afternoon, Heidi!
Heidi (heehee, I love that)

[Heidi]

Hi,

there are a few phd programs in clinical psych that give you a masters after i believe a year or two max but i have to admit they are extremely competitive, i've even spoken to professors that teach at Harvard now that had to obtain a master's first to gain admission to phd program.

in the meantime i wouldn't worry about your calories too much, I have found that when I cheat a little I actually don't gain and sometimes actually lose more, some people on the forum actually use this as a method to get out of a stall. Today I just have had another one of my omelettes, getting kind of tired of them, and some tea. We have to help move some furniture later so I'll probably eat then as well. I have to admit though I'm dying for something sweet, I can see myself cheating today but I'm realy going to try not to.

well I'm actually on AIM right now if you get this and I should be around for a little while, my name is HeidiDv, my boyfriend and I both used it for a while so that's why he is kind of included in the name, and if you can't go on tonight I should also be around later on tonight.

talk to you soon
Heidi

have you been able to get a good stifado where you are? I miss some of the greek food so much but it is honestly so expensive around here.

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi!

I haven't seen you around in a while so I'm writing a little note to say I hope you're doing well and staying with the program :)

I am doing my best...I wish I could speed up this progress though. I bought some Ketostix, and I tested very positive, so that is VERY GOOD. But my clothes aren't any looser, no weight loss, and no change in measurements.

Check out my journal for a great recipe that I made up for delicious spinach pies that might remind you of good times in Greece, I hope :) They're very low-carb, by the way!

I hope all is well!! Tomorrow is my Orientation, which is good, because I'm a little disoriented :daze: heehee

Ciao,
Heidi

[Heidi]

Just wanted to say hello since I don't know when I will be on the computer next. I hope your orientation went well too, I remember my orientation at UMB and it is scary and it must be even scarier at an ivy league school.

Well I have to admit I'm depressed, we got news last night that a couple that we hang out with once in a while just got engaged, and the pitiful part about it is that they met after my boyfriend and I. I don't know how much more happiness I can take, it's just so aggravating to share in everyone else's joy. I must sound disgruntled but I was in a wedding last October then this past May I was my best friend's maid of honor and then immediately afterwards a good friend from high school asked me to be in hers as well. Always a bridesmaid, never a bride is my new motto.
I'm sorry I'm bitching so much but I can't take it anymore, don't you just want to be the center of attention sometimes? That's exactly what I want and even though I sound like a spoiled brat right now I want to be engaged and show off my pretty ring and look through bridal magazines. I mean don't get me wrong I love hearing everyone's good news and I would love to hear that you were engaged or anyone is engaged but sometimes you just want something great to happen to yourself for a change. I think my boyfriend is tormenting me anyways, I don't think he'll ask for at least a couple more years and maybe its about time that I start pushing for it.

well sorry again for complaining so much in this post. Diet is going alright though, I haven't lost or gained and I haven't been sticking to it very well, had rice last night and all I've eaten today so far are M&M's, great breakfast and lunch!

hope all is going well and I hope to hear from you soon
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,

I know what you mean about the weddings. A lot of the students I met today are ALREADY married, so that's weird, and a bunch of them are engaged. I'm not the youngest one though, there's another girl who's going to turn 22 next May, and I turn 22 in February. That was a relief. Orientation was cool. I have to go back in a few minutes. I met some very cool people, and some kind of irritating people also. There was one guy who obviously needed to calm down and not ask so many stupid questions (ex., "Why is that statue there? I saw that statue in Rome. Why would Brown have a statue of Marcus Aurelius in the quad? Is the philosophy department nearby?" that is practically a direct quote from the irritating boy on the campus tour.

:nono: Now you know we can't have rice and m'n'm's or however you spell it. I'll tell you my new favorite dessert, maybe you can try it and eat it when you want something sweet. Try to find chocolate or strawberry (or both) syrup made with Splenda, sugarfree. I found them in my grocery store under diet foods. Put 1/2 cup of cottage cheese in a bowl, add some strawberry and chocolate syrup, and put blueberries on top. It is delicious, filling, and takes care of cravings for sweets, and has very few carbs. It's my ice-cream substitute :)

I haven't lost weight either. I do appear to be building muscle in my arms though :)

I haven't been "in" a wedding yet. None of my close friends have gotten married, but they're definitely in committed relationships and it's just a matter of time. Marios and I talk about it and when I say "When are we getting married?" He says "Call a priest!" but of course he's kidding. He told me he doesn't want to get married until I get my PhD. That's at least 5 years!!!

Ok, back to the orientation stuff....I'd better run!!

:) Heidi

[Heidi]

I know I'm doing horrible when it comes to this diet and thank you for the recipe, maybe I'll try it out tomorrow. I am though, in the back of my head, kind of counting carbs and stuff like that, I think I just need to wallow in my self pity for a couple of days while I finish another paper before classes start Tuesday.

In the meantime I remember my boyfriend mentioning that he wanted to wait until I graduated too, maybe that's what he's waiting for. I have this fantasy too that he'll ask me on New Year's Eve in Disney World this year at the stroke of midnight. I was hoping to be asked in Egypt on a pyramid but it's too dangerous there right now. I have some really out there fantasies but a girl can dream!

Anyhow it sounds like you'll do great at Brown. I couldn't imagine moving away to a college and starting fresh right now and you have and it's great. I guess that's kind of why I'm stuck on staying in Boston for my master's and phd. Maybe losing weight will build my confidence and get me to broaden my horizons a bit. So I guess that means no more M&M's!

hope you have a great weekend
Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi Heidi,

I just wanted to say good luck tomorrow on your first day at Brown! Hope you had a great long weekend as well.

hope to talk to you soon
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,

I did have a great weekend. My boyfriend came up on Saturday night for one night, and then it got late on Sunday so he stayed Sunday night, and we set the alarm for early Monday morning so he could drive back to NYC for work, and then when the alarm went off, he turned it off, and I said "Aren't you going to get up?" And he said "No" and I said "Are you going to work?" And he said "No, I don't have to go to work today" so he tricked me. It was such a great surprise. The closest thing I can compare it to is you're in high school, you wake up at 6:30, look out the window, and there's two feet of snow on the ground--back to bed!! So that was wonderful.

When he's here, my workouts suffer, though. I feel kind of icky wearing my not-so-attractive workout clothes and doing situps in front of him. So I didn't do the best workout yesterday, but I made up for it tonight. I did everything, including 6 miles on the bike.

I'm psyched and nervous about school. I hope I'm prepared for what I'm getting myself into!!

I have to get a good night's sleep. If I was back home, my mom would make blueberry pancakes from scratch for breakfast for the first day of school....homesick....oh well.

I was thinking today that I may be letting my carbs add up w/o realizing it. Eating a bunch of foods that have 2 carbs each adds up really fast without noticing it. So this week I am going to count everything, and see if I'm really staying under my 30/day limit. Starting tomorrow at breakfast. I haven't lost any weight, I'm at 221.5 right now, and it's very disappointing. I'm doing all that exercise, drinking lots of water, and I even went off birth-control pills, so maybe the problem is that I'm eating too many carbs w/o realizing it. Also, I may not be able to eat all the foods I'm currently eating. Some people seem to have problems w/ cheese, which I eat a TON of.

I'm going to keep plugging away at it though. ooooh I am mad, five undergrads moved into the apartment above me and they are SO LOUD I could march up there right now and kick their behinds. I hope they settle down soon.

Did you do anything special for the labor day weekend? I hope you at least got to RELAX. And how's the diet going??

Heidi

[Heidi]

Your weekend sounds fantastic and it was definitely a great way to start off a new semester. My boyfriend and I didn't do much, he has a couple of side jobs working on computers so he did that Saturday night. He also finally brought me the furniture I was getting from his grandparent's house so I pretty much organized and put away clothing all day Saturday. I have literally too many pieces of clothing, I literally don't have room to buy anything, I completely filled two more dressers and I need more room on top of that. Anyhow Sunday we went to Newburyport and Salisbury Beach and played arcade games and browsed through antique stores. It was actually a lot of fun. Monday we ended up finally hitting the sales because he needed some stuff at Compusa and we ended up going out to eat afterwards and he showed me a great side of himself. He was staring at a baby, I mean staring so bad he didn't make much eye contact with me at all and I wasn't really upset by it since it was directed toward a baby. It was awesome, I think he'd be absolutely incredible with kids. I mean he was fascinated by the simplest things, probably since he was the only child. I hope something happens soon between us.

Anyhow diet is going alright, not overdoing the carbs but not really sticking to anything either. I'm hoping to get on that two week plan soon and then afterwards stick to a modified Atkins program or maybe try out protein power.

Also school started today, honestly I'm very frustrated, I'm just completely sick of being here. I need more but since I'm not sure what I want to do I'm hoping this semester clarifies it for me. I'm taking two public policy courses in the hopes of conquering this problem for good. I hope it goes well for you today. I'll hopefully be on AIM tonight after classes. I have an additional class to attend tonight since I'm actually a mentor for it, it's a first year seminar and I guess my job is to help them get acquainted with college life and then make sure they know how to use all of the resources on campus and then help them with writing and research. I hope it's more than I think it'll be, I just would love a change of pace and then again I would love a challenge but I don't think I'll get that until grad school. I'm so sorry I'm rambling so much, there's just a ton on my mind.

well I hope all is well and your classes turn out to be interesting

Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi Heidi,

I went to my first class today, although it only met for 15 minutes because the Convocation for new students was during the scheduled time. The convocation was VERY cool. We walked in a procession through these big gates on campus that only open twice a year: once during convocation when you walk into campus, and once at commencement when you leave campus. Then the president and some other important people spoke, and it was very nice. So my first day was very easy: 15 minutes of class, a ceremony, lunch w/ classics people, and buying notebooks and stuff that I don't need at the Brown Bookstore.

I hope your diet comes in the mail soon! I actually had a lower weight today than in the past, but I've learned not to get to excited about that, since it may go back up tomorrow. I'm going to go eat an afternoon snack, since my lunch was a very small salad (the only thing at the cafe we went to that I could eat!)

I'll probably be online later...I'm so glad my first day was so stress-free and relaxing. Even though it rained and we had to sit on the College Green and listen to speeches for an hour in the rain. The singing of the school song was very pretty :)

Later, Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi,

Sounds like a great first day, I'm honestly I think just bored. I ended up getting work study with a professor in the psych department and that is going to work out pretty well and I have most of my classes determined as well so I guess things aren't going to bad here. This day is just going by so slowly, I have to wait around until tonight to go to a class that I will be mentoring so I have a lot of time to kill right now. Maybe when my schedule becomes a little more structured through the professors getting their acts together I'll be a little happier. As for now though I'm just sick of seeing the same walls.

well I'm glad your day went so well

Also I guess my package finally arrived but I won't get it until probably tomorrow since it's at my boyfriend's house, packages get sent there since more people will be home to sign for them.
I'm definitely excited about it though, looking forward to losing twenty pounds, even ten would be fantastic.

talk to you soon
Heidi

[Heidi]

just thought I'd say hello and see how classes are going. Mine are alright, I decided to take a couple of different things and I'm pretty pleased with my choices so far. I'm taking a bunch of policy courses, urban anthropology, public policy and women and public policy and they sound interesting thus far. In the meantime I have to admit that I'm absolutely exhausted. I'm trying to figure out who I'm working for since I have actually received a few offers, pretty excited actually because they are in the departments that I'm majoring in and I really need the extracurricular stuff for my grad school applications. I'm not sure what I'm going to do just yet though, have to meet with another professor today to discuss stuff and I guess I'll see what happens. It's kind of strange that I love what I'm doing right now but at the same time I hate it, I can see myself becoming a professional student!

Also the diet is not going to great, starting that two weeks of hell diet Monday, its pretty much low carb and high carb days combined with very low amounts of calories and exercise. I need to lose the weight, I think it would really make me feel better and complete what I wanted to accomplish during this year. How is it going for you, last time I read the thread you were doing well, you had lost weight and you are still sticking to it and you must be turning the fat into muscle. I wish I could get up and exercise everyday, I think I have to do it the way you are and just do it everyday because once I miss one day it's too easy to miss another and another.

well as you can probably tell I'm exhausted and I have to do some stuff and finish it all in a short time since I have to meet my mother so we can go to Bellingham for a wake.

I hope everything is going well and I'll see if you are around over the weekend. Hope everything is going well with boyfriend as well, mine is getting on my nerves since I still feel like I'm doing everything while he can just come home and play video games.
I guess living together isn't always as much fun as I thought it would be.

talk to you soon
Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi,

I'm not sure if you'll read this soon but I wanted to say thank you again for listening to me last night. I was so confused about everything. I guess I was feeling unimportant and unrespected at the same time because I'm never taken very seriously. I wonder sometimes if it's the fact that I'm a girl and I have breasts because I know I'm intelligent and that my ideas are significant. Oh well, I went for a directed study with that psych professor that I was talking about, won't be doing much work because I'm only taking it for one credit but I think I'm happy because after yesterday and today and attending two lab meetings working with clinical psych phd students I'm no longer interested in the field and it feels good that I've determined that. I think I'm going to honestly look more into public policy, I have always wanted to help people and I love politics and I think I'm really more interested in this and I can also integrate my psych and criminology interests in the field as well. I don't know if I'm rambling, came home and was so upset after two days of hell that I'm drinking a bottle of wine and it feels great since my headache has gone away and my jaw has stopped hurting. For about the last year whenever I get stressed out I clench my jaw together and after a few hours of doing it, it just aches tremendously.

Well I hope school is going well for you, I would love to be at Brown right now working with people that all love the field and are doing what they do because they love what they do. After the lab meeting yesterday I was so disgusted because he was so after publications and populations that he couldn't gain access to in order to publicize more that I got so disgusted that the field that I thought I wanted to work in was like that. I don't know if I'm making any sense, just a very long day and just made more difficult because my mind was made aware of so much as well.

hope all is going well
Heidi

[kypraia]

Hi,
I'm doing okay. I had a rough week and it's not over yet because I have a three hour exam tomorrow morning. But the classes are done, at least. I slept one hour last night: from 8 am to 9 am. It was the first all-nighter I've ever done. It sucked. I have a 3 hour exam tomorrow , just like last Saturday. They are working us so hard. I don't have time to work out anymore. It's not that I am being lazy. I literally don't have time to do it. I have a paper due on Tuesday (school just started!!!) so i have to get cracking on that......

otherwise, though I'm doing pretty well, just trying to learn as much as possible which ought to make it all easier later.

:) Talk to you soon,
Heidi

[Heidi]

It sounds absolutely terrible what they are putting you through but I guess it will pay off in the long run. School right now isn't too overwhelming, classes aren't bad because they are just a lot of reading. What's driving me crazy is my extracurricular stuff and working for three teachers who are all extremely disorganized. In the meantime I have to admit that I feel really good today, I think I have come to the conclusion that I'm going to apply for a phd program in public policy and maybe go for a graduate degree in whatever I want since public policy is just so broad that if I go for what I really want I will still qualify for pub policy. It's nice to kind of have that figured out.

well good luck with everything, they sound like they are putting you way too much and I have always wondered when I have been put through it if they realize what they are putting you through. I hope you find some time over the weekend to sleep and I honestly wouldn't worry about working out right now, I think school is more important and the torture may not last too much longer, hopefully

Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi Heidi,


If you read my posts last week it sounded like I was dramatizing a bit but I guess it was bad for me because the field that I thought I loved wasn't that great after all. Anyhow how is everything going? How is school and all of the exams? How was your weekend? Mine was alright, we didn't do too much, had to go to school for a little while on Sat. but then went to a bog, I guess there aren't too many and since my boyfriend had gone on his ecology lab field trip he wanted me to see it as well. He can be the best tour guide and because of it we had a good time. Sunday I saw my parents and it just got me infuriated as usual, long story.

Also I wanted to tell you and I guess warn you to be careful with this new wol, my mother just got her cholesterol results in and it was in the 280's!

Hope all is well.
Heidi

[Heidi]

Hi,


not sure if you're going to get this since you're so busy but with that two week diet i managed to lose 10 pounds and keep them off which is all the better in my eyes. I thought i went down to 164.5 but i'm staying at 168.5 and that's alright because when i've done this in the past the weight immediately returns and it's not this time. Of course i finally started working out too and doing my ab doer again so i feel really great as well. It took me a lot to get on my treadmill again but once I did I find myself feeling better and sleeping better and I missed those benefits. I purchased another two week diet on ebay called spirostim, a new version of the last thing i bought, and it should be coming in soon. I'm beginning to accept the fact that ten pounds is ok if you keep it off.

Anyhow how are you? How was your weekend with your boyfriend? I hope all is well.

Heidi

[kypraia]

Hey Heidi,
Yeah, my boyfriend didn't come after all, but he's coming this weekend (so he says) and we're going to have our two-week-late anniversary dinner.

Hmmph.

Congratulations about the 10 pounds! I've been so busy with school I haven't had time to think about working out and I just eat whatever's in the fridge, which is all low-carb because I don't buy anything else. But I'm kind of noticing that clothes are looser which is good.

I get a three-day weekend coming up and I am SO SO SO excited to get a little break. What a relief!! I'm going to get back to work now!!

:) Heidi

[Robed]

I'm applying to universities at the moment. To be honest, I think LC'ing will be easier at University (should I still need to do it then).

Applying to Yale, Notre Dame, Boston College, Georgetown and Tufts just in case anyone is interested.

[kypraia]

Hi Robed,
I don't think that LC-ing is easier at Univ unless you have a lot of money. Most kids try to get by on a meal plan and not much else, and that means mostly carbs because that's what is cheap for the university to feed you. If you do LC in a university dining hall get ready for major repetition, like tuna fish every single day or something. Since you aren't preparing the food yourself, you can't have any of the prepared meat dishes that they add all kinds of crap to. Once you get a kitchen it gets easier, but again it can be very expensive to be eating beef when your friends are eating ramen and rice.

as for the schools you're applying to, good luck, I got my BA at one of the ones you listed!!

one small piece of advice: you said you'd be LC'ing "if I need to do it then." Remember the only way LC-ing works is if you make the commitment to do it forever. Otherwise, it's no better than any crash / fad diet. At our age it's all about image, so stick with the diet and you'll be healthier and happier.

And take a prehistoric anthropology class in college--you'll find out why LC is the only natural way to eat.

Good luck and I hope to see you on here again.
Best, Kypraia