Crud...

[Giant]

I posted this in my journal, but in case anyone was wondering where I've been...and how sucky I've been doing on my diet.

Stress, how I wish I could deal with ye!
How I wish I had resisted temptation!
How I missed my time on the boards...getting daily "stick with its" from all my friends.

The last few weeks have been rough. I've been smoking. That's done now. I didn't smoke yesterday and I don't feel the urge today.

I have been traveling so much and I did, in fact, go way off plan for a few days. I felt so sick yesterday. I said, well at least on Atkins I don't feel like I am going to die after each meal. It dawned on me yesterday that I might see a bit of the weight back in my face and belly.

And smoking makes it harder to breathe, so I haven't been exercising. ARRGGHGHHH. This is the pitfall.

But! I played a kick ass show on Friday. I haven't rocked that hard, or sang that passionate in a long time. I was as close to heaven as I can get this side of the firmament. There was a great response to my new project and I think things are going to come together with it.

I am re-comitting to my diet and re-comitting to feeling like the world is mine to take.

The condo is under contract, and we have the earnest money.

We have secured an awesome house to rent for super super cheap (it's good to have good friends) in our new town.

My wife feels closer to a job.

I'm walking into our new town with awesome musicians who want to play music with me.

I'm walking into our new town with a kick ass school waiting to learn me some good stuff.

There is no room to not follow the way of eating that has had me on cloud nine for the last 3 months.

This setback sucks, but for crap's sake, I am ready to rock this again.

Oh, and an official and public offering of bragging rights to FAT GUY for kicking my butt on the race to 340. I take of my hat to him. Great job!

[Charran]

Giant...You're not the first person who has slipped, nor will you be the last. The key is that you have come back and re-committed to a healthier lifestyle. Success will come from trying over and over again. The only failure is to give up completely! It sounds like your life has many positive things in it right now and that's great. I wish you well!

[diemde]

I'm so glad you came back! We missed ya!

I think major life changes are a real threat to maintaining a lifestyle. I fell off the wagon after moving to a new house and had financial issues. It happens to a lot of people. The good news is that once you restart, you can get right back on track and continue on the journey.

Good luck in your new town and with your music. BTW, I was a singer in high school and was going to be a music teacher. But I changed my career in college. There are days when I wish I hadn't... so follow your dream!

[katwoman]

And good for you for only being off track a few weeks. . .it took me almost 2 years (and regaining all but 5 lbs of what was previously lost) to get enough sense to get back to business.

[MorganMac]

I said, well at least on Atkins I don't feel like I am going to die after each meal.

LOL so true! I don't think most people realize how bad the carbs make you feel until you've been "clean" of them for awhile! :)

Welcome back to the board!

[kathleen24]

Katwoman and Dianne said it all for me--congrats on being a much quicker learner.

Suggestion: be hyper-vigilant in your new digs--we are such creatures of habit. If you put it firmly in your mind that sugar will never cross your threshold, and that carby-junk doesn't belong in your gorgeous new house, half the battle will be won without effort.

Very gracious touch there re: FatGuy. The race isn't over yet, though, and both of you--all of us-- can be winners.

[Scented1]

hi Giant!

I wanted to check in and see how you are doing today.

HUGS
Rach