roch
Sun, May-20-07, 08:02
Hi well i cant say i am a newbie to low carbing as i have tried it on a few occasions but due to many reasons i fell of track pratically immediately.
Over the past 2 years i have gained around 50lbs and my health has deteriated both mentally and phyically. I started suffering from depression big time and also mild Agrophobia and hardly left the house and if i did maybe once evry few weeks but not on my own and i think that the agrophobia came from the fact that on so many occasions when i went out and about people blatantly made comments out loud about my size and made me feel shame big time.
Phyisically my body was just giving up it could not cope with 400lbs of fat and i could barely walk and was taking untold strong painkillers just to stand up in the morning.
2 weeks ago my second cousin died of Breast cancer and i have had alot of BC in my family my beautiful mum died of Bc when she was 36 and i was 8 at the time and then her mum died 8 yrs after of Bc.
When my cousin passed 2 weeks ago i had already been to see a private consultant who had aggreed to fit me in the next 3 weeks to have a gasric bypass op and my uncle was going to pay for it as he was so horrified to see how bad things had got for me and was so scared i am going to die.
I aggreed to the op as my self oppinion was very poor and i felt like i would never be able to lose weight on my own, the op was meant 2 be on the 18th May.
When my cousin died and i could not go the funeral as there were 2 many peeps there although they were my family i was ashamed of being seen in the state i was.
My beautiful son Aaron who is now practically 15 said he was scared about me having the surgery and pls mum can u try and lose the weight slowly and not have the surgery as he was scared of me not making through the surgery.Aaron has practically had to do everyhting for me the past few years and never complained about helping me or about my weight but he misses out on so much as i cant do the normal things a mum should do for her son but still he does not complain.
I made up my mind the day Hazel died that no matter what i cant carry on like this either way i am going to die if i carry on the way i am or possibly under surgery as i weigh 396lbs.
So i decided that becuase i have POCS and i am a carb addict i have to LC so i started LCing last Saturday and my weight was 396. I decided that i need to be weighed regular and i my best friend duaghter has a serious weight problem and is only 11 so i tild her i will take her to Weight watchers every week to help her lose weight and i will get weighed each week while i am there.
So i went back this Sat with my friends daughter Angel and i was so proud of her she lost 4lbs and i was gobsmacked when i had lost 21lbs the leader asked me to get on and off 3 times and could not believe it.
Already after losing that little bit if weight i feel happier but dont know anyone else following lc and really need some support.
This time i am 100% committed and my head is in the right place i will lose weight and change my life and i accept it may be a long journey but hey no pain no gain so they say !!
If anyone would like a buddy for some extra support then here i am.
Take care and thanks for taking the time to read my post.
Over the past 2 years i have gained around 50lbs and my health has deteriated both mentally and phyically. I started suffering from depression big time and also mild Agrophobia and hardly left the house and if i did maybe once evry few weeks but not on my own and i think that the agrophobia came from the fact that on so many occasions when i went out and about people blatantly made comments out loud about my size and made me feel shame big time.
Phyisically my body was just giving up it could not cope with 400lbs of fat and i could barely walk and was taking untold strong painkillers just to stand up in the morning.
2 weeks ago my second cousin died of Breast cancer and i have had alot of BC in my family my beautiful mum died of Bc when she was 36 and i was 8 at the time and then her mum died 8 yrs after of Bc.
When my cousin passed 2 weeks ago i had already been to see a private consultant who had aggreed to fit me in the next 3 weeks to have a gasric bypass op and my uncle was going to pay for it as he was so horrified to see how bad things had got for me and was so scared i am going to die.
I aggreed to the op as my self oppinion was very poor and i felt like i would never be able to lose weight on my own, the op was meant 2 be on the 18th May.
When my cousin died and i could not go the funeral as there were 2 many peeps there although they were my family i was ashamed of being seen in the state i was.
My beautiful son Aaron who is now practically 15 said he was scared about me having the surgery and pls mum can u try and lose the weight slowly and not have the surgery as he was scared of me not making through the surgery.Aaron has practically had to do everyhting for me the past few years and never complained about helping me or about my weight but he misses out on so much as i cant do the normal things a mum should do for her son but still he does not complain.
I made up my mind the day Hazel died that no matter what i cant carry on like this either way i am going to die if i carry on the way i am or possibly under surgery as i weigh 396lbs.
So i decided that becuase i have POCS and i am a carb addict i have to LC so i started LCing last Saturday and my weight was 396. I decided that i need to be weighed regular and i my best friend duaghter has a serious weight problem and is only 11 so i tild her i will take her to Weight watchers every week to help her lose weight and i will get weighed each week while i am there.
So i went back this Sat with my friends daughter Angel and i was so proud of her she lost 4lbs and i was gobsmacked when i had lost 21lbs the leader asked me to get on and off 3 times and could not believe it.
Already after losing that little bit if weight i feel happier but dont know anyone else following lc and really need some support.
This time i am 100% committed and my head is in the right place i will lose weight and change my life and i accept it may be a long journey but hey no pain no gain so they say !!
If anyone would like a buddy for some extra support then here i am.
Take care and thanks for taking the time to read my post.