Hanging my head in shame...

[happy07]

Ok...so I admit it, I totally blew my first week of induction. It's my own fault, and I did it willfully and completely.
Did I bother to exercise? No!
Did I bother to actually prepare foods to take to work with me? No!
Did I prepare snacks ahead of time? No!
Did I set myself up to fail? Oh, YES!
Did I teach myself a hard lesson? I really, really hope so.

Moral of this story: when I screw up, I do it all the way.

Now, what am I going to do to correct this?
~I've printed out the list of allowed foods for induction (yes I've read the book cover to cover several times, but loaned out my copy and need to purchase a new one soon. So, just went to the website tonite...)
~Tomorrow I'll be at the grocery with my list
~I'll get off my chunky, lazy butt and get some stuff prepared
~I'll also get my chunky, lazy butt into Curves and get it worked out!

Not kidding here. Today alone, I porked out on pizza and cake. Right now, I feel absolutely yucky. My tummy is all bloated and...ahem...gassy. And, I feel like I put on 20 lbs. Probably in reality it was 2 or 3; but, feels like much more.
I've spent this week starting out ok with my food, and then messing up later in the day. Got depressed over something silly early in the week and just quit caring (pretty sure PMS had something to do with it :blush: ).

Now I know that I am ready to start for real. I don't like this icky feeling in my tummy. I know that I will probably slip again, but will try to control myself (no promises to myself that I might break other than to try hard).
Thought about joining a challenge to increase my resolve, but don't think that I need the additional pressure right now.

What I do need is LOTS of support from y'all. :help: Anyone wanna be a buddy?? ;)

[Charran]

Happy...The important thing here is that you realize what you did wrong that caused you to blow it! You have acknowleged it and more importantly come up with some steps to correct it and get yourself back on track. This whole process is a journey to self-discovery and you have made an important one. It's a step in the right direction and for that you should be proud of yourself. I wish you much success with your plan and would be very willing to support you along the way!

[diemde]

I agree with Char. We all make a mistake from time to time on this journey, but the key is to learn from it. You did great recognizing it, admitting it here and planning how to make a course correction. :thup:

I would encourage you to think about what caused you to be depressed and eat off plan. Was there something you could have done to keep yourself on plan? Emotional eating is a real threat to being successful and the more you learn about this event and plan how to handle similar situations in the future, the better off you'll be.

One of the things that helps me is that I post my weight every day in my journal. I just hate to post a gain so that helps me be true to myself every day.

Good luck on getting restarted!

[stacy0912]

happy don't beat yourself up. if theres anything i learned this time around doing atkins is i'm not going to beat myself up when i go off, and i have gone off 8 times since january :cry: but the important this is getting back on the wagon the very next day.

i'm a binge eater too. when i go off i go WAYYYYY off. so i try to first not go off :lol: but if that doesn't happen i try to limit the damage to a few hours because i will only go off for dinner and beyond. but i'm like you if i'm off i say why the heck not, where's the donuts, cake, cookies etc. i pay the price for the whole week trying to get that weight off to get to my original before the binge.

as with induction...i truly feel i've never done it right since i consume way too much coffee and vegetables. i never have known if i'm in ketosis or not. i do the best that i can for me. and that's what you have to do..make this your Way of Life. if your going to cut everything out ask yourself can you live with it forever. many here criticize i eat popcorn once or twice a month. it's something i feel if i eat keeps me happy and on plan. i try to moderate how much i'm eating and figure it into my daily carbs. but to not allow myself certain things is setting me up for a diet mentality. and that is what you need to work on. you want pizza just eat the toppings throw away the bread, it tastes icky anyways right. get a pizza with everything on it and eat a couple of 'slices, toppings only of course', and you will be really satisfied without causing yourself the damage.

hang in there happy. the best thing with atkins is when signing up you don't sign a contract for only one chance. today is a new day!

[Dorr185]

The good news it you didn't blow your first week on Atkins, you were never truly on it!

So I wouldn't even bother calling that a failed attempt.

It only works when your TRULY want it too. You should take the time to really self evaluate whether or not you are truly dedicated to the journey.

[Kris S]

Quit kicking your own butt and making yourself feel worse. :)

You have two options...quit (which you don't want to do)....or give it another try.

:) You're human. Life goes on. It's too short to worry about one mistake. Brush off the dust and give it another chance.

[happy07]

First, let me just say "THANKS" to everyone.
Guess it is true that I was never "really" doing the first week of induction (thanks for pointing that out, Dorr :) ). Not really something that I wanted to admit to myself. It really was a half-hearted attempt, at most.

I'm making the corrections that need to be made so that I can be successful. Which is what should have happened in the first place, but didn't.

There's many reasons that I want/need to be successful and I know that lc'ing DOES work. Now, I just need to get out of my way and let me do it. that's the part that's easier said than done.

Thanks all of you for helping to prop me up. sitting on the floor throwing a pity party is really not all that much fun. :lol:

[Cranky]

Anyone wanna be a buddy?? ;)

I think you and I were soulmates in a past life!! :lol: :lol:

[susansmk]

Happy, you're on the right track. You screwed up, you acknowledged that you screwed up, now you're committed to doing this the right way. Hell, you even owned your mistake, which is hard to do. You came here because you wanted to be held accountable, and that's a wonderful thing. I'm proud of ya, darlin'! Now let's do this!

[IrishShrty]

How is today going Happy? You can do this! Watch falling in the negative funk....it only eccentuates it!
You can do this! We all can...let's go!

[happy07]

How is today going Happy? You can do this! Watch falling in the negative funk....it only eccentuates it!
You can do this! We all can...let's go!

Oh my gosh...you are sooo right! Getting caught up in the negative stuff just makes everything worse. But it's so easy to slip into it.
How to stay out of the funk? There's the million dollar question of the day. :lol:

[Greenwitch]

You know, in my journal I bitch and moan and it feels GOOD to get it all out. There's far more to losing weight than calories in vs. calories out (or in our case carbs LOL). There's a whole psychological angle. It sounds like what really happened is that you have acknowledged what you did, you're examining what happened and why, and you're ready to move on. Jsut the fact that you posted what happened is a huge accomplishment. I think this entire "mistake" needed to happen so you could feel out your intentions and come out stronger and more resolved for it.

You go girl!

[saucywench]

Unloading on this forum helps with the funky mood stuff....It is refreshing to be able to say things here that you could never say in the real world...I would never tell my near and dear that I used to hid how much I ate..that I used to sit in my car cramming in drive thru food..but here I can say those things and everyone understands cause they have been there or have been through something similiar....So keep talking to us babe!!

[happy07]

You know, in my journal I bitch and moan and it feels GOOD to get it all out. There's far more to losing weight than calories in vs. calories out (or in our case carbs LOL). There's a whole psychological angle. It sounds like what really happened is that you have acknowledged what you did, you're examining what happened and why, and you're ready to move on. Jsut the fact that you posted what happened is a huge accomplishment. I think this entire "mistake" needed to happen so you could feel out your intentions and come out stronger and more resolved for it.

You go girl!
Greenwitch and saucywench (I just love those names!)~isn't it amazing how much just typing out what's in your head helps so much? A lot of times, I'll be typing and find out things I didn't even know about myself.
Hey, eventually something really amazing might come out that will be the turning point and make this whole thing easy. :lol: Kinda scary there.

[Saiyara]

Hi Happy07,

I think most of us have done what you have done at some point in the past. It's great that you can come here and get support from others who understand. Good luck on getting back on track. Sometimes, interestingly, it takes that last big binge/sick feeling to get us truly ready to commit.
Take care.

P.S.

I am interested in learning what your experience with Curves has been like. I will post a new thread. Hope you respond!

[happy07]

Hi Happy07,

I think most of us have done what you have done at some point in the past. It's great that you can come here and get support from others who understand. Good luck on getting back on track. Sometimes, interestingly, it takes that last big binge/sick feeling to get us truly ready to commit.
Take care.

P.S.

I am interested in learning what your experience with Curves has been like. I will post a new thread. Hope you respond!

Hi Saiyara :wave:
I did respond to your curves thread :D
It is wonderful to be able to come to such a safe place to do all my fussing and moaning with people who do understand and don't judge.
Since I'm on vacation all week, I'm going to start on monday and try to hit curves 6 days in a row. then next monday, I'll try to do the same thing. and the next and the next.
starting today, I'm going to try to get in a walk every evening with the doggies and kiddies (3 large dogs, can't handle 'em all by myself).
I am choosing to give my body all the healthy foods and exercise that it is craving! :wiggle:

[Annie1gi]

Good luck, we have all fallen off the wagon at one time or another. It sure helps to have this forum and the wonderful people here to support and understand "why" we do this!

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[deborah c]

Happy. it appears I'm following you all over the posts today! It has been 4 days since anyone posted, good subject so maybe we can keep it going - because you see today is my birthday - and if your ever looking for the best excuse for cheating this has got to be it!
Just got back from the store and I did NOT fall of the program - however I do plan on adding a slightly more then usual amount of Cool Whip to my evening coffee. Did you update your stats yet?