lost: one skinny girl and her confidence

[Mia7681]

I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for about 4 years now. Many meds tried, many books read, many therapists seen. I can't seem to find my balance with those three things. And I have found for me that my poor self image and emotional health being so unstable i turn to food. It keeps my head occupied...until the reality check in the mirror that leaves me wondering "where did I go?". I am here now to find myself, physically and emotionally (the self-confidence). Today is day one (the third try) of induction. I get soooo down sometimes though it baffles me. I actually took a 30 minute walk yesterday and half way through it I started crying. Why? I couldn't tell you. So here we go, the first step on a weary road that will hopefully lead to sunny skies and optomism. I enjoy readinf all the other threads. It helps to know I am not alone
Thanks

[Allergymom]

Welcome..

U can do this..We all have our problems with depression/anxiety etc..Guess no one is perfect. U can do this..think positive and come here for support and a shoulder to lean on. Best of luck on your weightloss endeavor..Take one day at a time and drink your water. We are all in this together..

Best Wishes..
Cya

PS..Get you a journal started so we can come in to help out plus its a good tool to put down your thoughts/menus etc..It sure helps

[joylorene]

Hope you get the support you need - I know this place has really helped keep me going.

[3shewolf8]

I know how you feel. I also know when someone says just that, you think to yourself, "yeah, right", well, just last week, I saw myself in the mirror, was happy with what I saw, but for some unexplained reason, later I just started crying. I didn't have anything bad going on, I was just doing some mudane chore around the house, leaned over the bed and bawled my eyes out. I finished, shook it off, and kept going. This forum is a fantastic place to get support for whatever you need. good luck

[bull999999]

It helps to know I am not alone

You're right, you are not alone...

[Didy]

Mia, you are making a great start by coming here! May I recommend that along with the healthy eating you are now doing as a low carber, how about getting some good quality vitamin B-complex supplements as well. They are very beneficial for emotional health. Take 'em for a few weeks and see if you notice any improvement. I was also going to recommend Vitamin D, but I see you live in San Diego so you should have plenty of that! :)

Have a GREAT day Mia and keep your eyes open on this forum, I bet there is someone here who you will be able to help because of the trials you have been through!

[EMROWS]

Mia....hang in there . i have delt with depression for the past 10 years, my mother and all of my aunts have it too so i know how rough it can get.Some of us take meds and some don't , i dont anymore. I have tried different medications too and nothing worked , it ended up just dulling out my already fading self ....it made me worse in the end. One of the things that i finaly figured out was that i can not be on "the pill" of any kind. Hormones really do a number on me and many other women, if you are on the pill I would look into that. Just a thought. As for the crying thing dont sweat it, some people cry more than others.. i cry all the time, when i see something beautiful i cry, when i am sad i cry, i even cry when i laugh and dont know why.... in fact today i cried watching "the closing bell"....who the heck cries at that...i mean honestly?? LOL??!! Although i still have my hills and valleys with manic depression and will the rest of my life , I have learned to reach out when I need a friend and keep myself busy with things and people that bring me joy. If you dont know what makes you happy anymore than you need to try some new things out, new hobbies ya know. Life is too short Mia, look no further than within yourself for strength and beauty... and as dark as life may seem some times , there are always things to be thankful for and blessings around the corner. You have good things coming in your future :)

[Mallory08]

Mia- I can't say i relate totally to you but here's my story... i dealt with depression/anxiety/ and an eating disorder(anorexia) from about june-december... in june i moved from Maryland to MS what a change... i left 3 years of college and my best friends behind and moved in with my parents to finish school down here... i had a horrible summer... i would cry for NO REASON i would not talk to anyone and i was absolutely miserable... i got absolutely addicted to counting everything that went in my mouth every calorie and gram of everything... for some reason i saw it as the one thing in my life i could control and so i did...so finally my parents stepped in and made me get help and medication... i took zoloft.. not a fan of it it lasted about a week and i quit taking it... and seriously as much as the therapists/books/ and everything you could possibly do help somewhat it really does come from within... you will wake up one morning and appreciate yourself and realize your life has soooo much potential and life in itself is just a blast ( as they say im goin to skid sideways into my grave yeallin WHAT A RIDE)
so is there something that maybe you are trying to control in your life that you need to revert the control to what really is the matter? it seems you turn to food, and i turned to food as well but in the wrong way as well... i learned SLOWLY and i will admit it is a long way to the end of the tunnel... but when you realize what it is that's controlling you your life will improve 2093645023645802375 % ... since i have gotten better i have bbeen on the OWL on Atkins to make sure i get enough fat and protein in my diet and promise me i think i am the only person who does Atkins to gain weight haha i only have about 25 grams of carbs a day but i messed up my metabolism to the point that it will be a while before it runs the speed it should esp at age 21... i am here to support you if you need anything!

*just keep on keepin on!*