I Need HHHEEELLLPPP!!!

[Edy]

I am so upset-
ok- I have stayed at 180 for almost an entire month- I have not dipped below ONCE. I've swung up to 185, but no more than that. It's almost like my scale is broken! I am so discouraged! I've tried so many things- pulling back portion size (which I rebelled against the next day and overate), only using non-refined sugars (which I rebelled against the next week), and beginning to exercise (which I understand can make you gain weight), I drink over 70 oz. of water a day, and my RM is early in the evening (5:00).

Does anyone think I can get through these factors?
-My birth control interferes with weight loss (when I went off to get pregnant with DS, I lost 15 pounds in two months)
-I'm not as young as I used to be- weight loss will be slower
-I want to have complicated foods- not just one section plain protein, one section plain veg, one section plain carb
-While I've been better, I usually go over the hour one day during the weekend.
-I am TOTALLY a social eater, but once again, have gotten better.
- My TOM is completely crazy- I can not do anything different, but my weight will go up at least 4 lbs. Not a problem, it just didn't dip below when I was finished this time.

My journals are accurate and consistant- I just haven't seemed to "click" like I have before with this diet. I am getting back to becoming an emotional eater- I've gotten grumpy (like today) and all I want to do is give up and eat! I haven't felt that way in quite some time. I won't, because I don't want to feel even worse after I break plan.
The biggest difference for me this time is using the scale- I become obsessed, but I wanted to see if I was losing- it's so confusing. Can anyone shed some light on this? I see all of your successes and just get sick that I'm not with you.
This is the best WOL for me- I just want to see the weight loss while I enjoy the feelings of balance and freedom!
Thanks so much
Edy

[mirielle]

Edy, I go to Fitday.com I plug in my daily weights, the ups and downs, and it keeps me sane. That way I don't go crazy if my weight suddenly shifts up for no reason...or down for no reason. It is the long term slow loss that we are looking for, the long term health benefits, the lesseining of insulin resistance.

My weight can differ by 3 lbs in 24 hours...and I am way past menopause. I cannot afford to get nuts about that.

I don't do CAD. I do CALP. I find if I start having more that 3 real desserts a week, I stall. I have to eat within the hour, no matter what. I have to walk everyday for that scale to move. Wheat stalls me out. I pretty much avoid it and think may go back to avoiding it all together.

I too combine foods. There is nothing wrong with that, as long as you are not overcarbing.

I would look at the cheat sheet to see if there is anything you are doing that is causing the stall.

[Edy]

Thanks, mirielle- you made some good points and after talking with my DH, I decided to clean off the scale, and give it away. I've gone through this big mess twice in my life, so shame on me. When I fist started CALP (in 1996), I bought the scale to weigh myself everyday. After 5-6 months of roller coaster emotions, I threw it away. I feel I've "failed" when the scale is up, and get so nervous and tense right before I weigh myself. Sooo, I have started to make healthier choices, and I'm going to focus on long-term health and happiness.
My problem has always been that I'm not diabetic or have any serious health problems. I always felt I could cheat- that it's not that big of a deal. While diabetes runs in my family, I thought this would be a great plan to prevent me from going down that road.
If I am going to be this size all my life, so be it. I have a loving family and a great life, and I need to start loving myself. I will keep to the plan, but hopefully I will see results in clothing and stay clear of diabetes as I get older.
Thanks so much again,
Edy

[Enomarb]

Hi Edy-
sounds good. I also think that you know what to do.
I think focusing on health and how you feel is always good. Have you thought about switching your b/c type? There are some very good new options.
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