Omigosh

[rae2u100]

Well today I found out what I was fearing. I'm pregnant. That is still hard to confess and at this moment I am thinking about not even doing this thread. But yep, I am 3 weeks late and I just had a feeling that the mojo worked. Am I happy..I don't know. I haven't even told the father. Wow that sounds weird. Father. Hmmm. But I will tell him when we are home tonight. This was not expected and not planned. We aren't married, but live together. I don't even know if we will get married..at least I don't want this to be a reason to get married. And now well, I guess time will tell. Oh my gosh. I'm pregnant. I don't even know what to do. I have the worst headache, but can't take anything I have cuz it's got asprin in it. I bought a coffee this morning along w/ the First Response and ended up giving it to a co-worker. That test was a little iffy. So I mentioned it to my billing manager and she went to the our RN in the office and discreetly asked for one of their tests..that one was definitely positive. I have one more in the car and maybe take that one tomorrow morning. How long will it take to sink in. I just lost 24 lbs. I don't want to gain it back. I am soooo upset. Not at the fact that I'm pregnant, cuz that is a wonderful thing and in time I know it will be the most wonderful feeling. But I cannot believe I was that stupid. Another statistic. I just don't know how to cope right now. Ahhhhhh. Maybe I need to go home and sleep since it wasn't that great last night....

[Meg_S]

(hug) Well.. I hope you can find some joy out of it!!! The little soul was meant to belong to you... I'm in a different situation (married) but definitely did not intend to get pregnant either (he's almost 7 months now) and had the same OMG HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO STUPID? thoughts.
The women here are caring and it's a good place for support.

[rae2u100]

Thanks Meg. I think I'm still in denial, but when I tell Rick tonight, I think it will put it in more perspective. I just don't know what to do. Like taking ibuprofen for my pounding headache now or drinking a diet sprite or eating shrimp for dinner tonight. It's like okay my routine is now going to be altered. I just don't know...but I guess I'll be buying a pregnancy book..haha..

[rae2u100]

PS Meg..ur son is absolutely adorable..

[sophotia]

u..can..take..Tylenol.
I..felt..the..same..way..initially.
Now...I...feel...blessed.
Just..had..to..get..used..to...it.
Plus..my..fiance'...is..already..a..great..father..to..his..kids..and..
mine.
:)

[rae2u100]

Thanks ya'll. Well today is a brighter day. After talking yesterday after work, we sorted it out and it looks like things will be on the bright side. It's still getting used to the idea. I bought a baby book last night so it will be tons helpful..kinda makes it real. Thanks again for listening when I need it most!!

[Meg_S]

Just wondering how you're doing......

[rae2u100]

Well..after a week of getting used to the idea and for me getting to love the idea of being a mother, I miscarried. I think that was the hardest news I had ever gotten. I have been angry and upset since I found out 10 days ago, but a friend of mine passed away w/ cancer and I used the funeral yesterday to find some closure w/ the situation. I'll never forget, but I'll be okay. The doctor had called me last week and told me I was Rh negative, so I had to get a rhogam shot, which is probably the reason I miscarried. So now I know for future..but planned..pregnancies. Thanks soo much for the concern... :)

[Meg_S]

oh I am so sorry you had to go through that!!! Wow.. both of those things at once must have been so hard.
Just as an aside, I've never heard of the Rhogam short inducing a miscarriage, I'll have to look into that. I am Rh negative as well and had my shots with the first one. Am thinking about another pregnancy to give him a little friend to play with and get it all over with in a short time period. Mothering tiny ones is not my idea of a fun time.. no matter how much I love them.
This isn't meant as a pressure question, but have you thought about when you might get pregnant again? I mean.. after getting used to the idea of being a mum, is it something you want now, or something that will happen much later with planning?
Take care,
Meg

[rae2u100]

Oh yeah, I even mentioned it to my bf, but even though we weren't ready and were getting used to the idea, he just isn't ready to become a father yet. I have to respect that. So on we go w/ our original plans to wait and get married first and all that good stuff. But definitely it is still in my mind to have another one now, but before this whole thing, the time is just not right. One day it will be though.
As for the Rh negative thing, I read about it some on the net and I guess from what I got from it is that the baby must have gotten Rick's blood type, which had to be positive (he isn't sure what blood type he is) and my blood saw the baby as a foreign object and so my immune system was trying to attack it therefore loss of baby. I guess the shot gives me the antibody to make everything okay..I guess but now I know and next time can be all the more cautious.

[Josiemk]

Rae,
I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope that one day you'll get to have a child. Just test early so you'll have better results.

[nocarbs4gj]

Rae, I am very sorry for your loss. I happened across this thread, and when I read your post about the miscarriage, I admit I cried. I had three miscarriages before my daughter was born, and I've had one miscarriage since. I had my tubes tied after that, because I couldn't bear to go down that path again.

I still don't know why I had all of the miscarriages. I got pregnant again before we could complete the testing after the third miscarriage. On the fourth pregnancy, we erred on the side of caution, and I took progesterine supplements. We'll never know if that was the problem on the other pregnancies or not, but I now have my daughter.

I hope things turn out a lot better for you in the future.