Need help- really feeling down....

[LC14]

I'm really looking for some advice/support here. I don't know where to start, but here goes. When I began low-carbing, my starting weight was 140, and I lost about 7 pounds in the first 3-4 weeks (which I was really happy with). However I was stuck at 133 for quite awhile. After being stuck there for about three weeks, I completely fell off the LC wagon. (This was about a month and a half ago now). Problem is, not only did I fall off the LC wagon, somewhere in there I jumped onto the binge eating one.

I'm talking major binging, mostly on sweets, as that is my weakness. I mean binging to the point of feeling sick afterwards. This has been going on for a little less than a month. It started as 'I will eat whatever I want today as a treat, and then start lc'ing again tomorrow.' But then tomorrow came, and I said the same thing. 'One more day, then I'll start.' Well, one day turned to 2, 2 to 3, 3 to 4, and well, now it's been over a month. I gained back all 7 pounds that I lost, plus five more, making my current weight 145. Needless to say, I am VERY depressed. I've tried several times to get back on induction. I last for one day, then go back to binging.

I feel horrible. Binging makes me feel horrible, so I don't know why I do it. I guess it's the fleeting pleasure that it brings- but boy is it fleeting. Lately, I've been feeling depressed, listless, don't want to go out, tired all the time, hate the way I look,etc.. and I know it's because of the unhealthy lifestyle I've adopted for the last month. I want to be healthy, I want to be fit, and I want to reach my goal weight. I want to say 'Tomorrow I will begin this lifestyle', and actually DO it ( and stick to it.) I know I can, as I have in the past, but am just lacking the inspiration to do so, I guess.

For some reason, I'm scared the weight won't come off. I don't know why I feel that way.. I guess maybe I'm worried that because I've done low carb before, and I know that each time you restart the weight loss isn't as quick, I'm worried.

I would love to just feel some support.. I've tried talking about this with people.. my mom, who I'm usually SO close to. But she just doesn't understand what I'm going through. Because I'm not SIGNIFICANTLY overweight, she tells me I look fine and worry too much. She is also very naturally very thin, and doesn't have food issues, as I obviously have developed in the past month.

I would love to hear any response any one has for me- sorry for being so long winded. I just REALLY wanna get on the right track! I know I can do it, just need a little help!

[BBQgal]

Hi,
There is a forum emotional issues that has a food addicts thread that might help you. I hope this might help.
good luck
Annie

[LC14]

Thanks, I found that thread a couple weeks ago, and I've been visiting it alot :)

I apologize if my post shouldn't be in this forum.. Admins, feel free to move me if I posted in the wrong forum! ( still new to the whole message board thing ;) )

[BBQgal]

Hi,
I love coming to this forum. When there are no or limited meetings in your living area, it can be frustating not having some one to relate and talk to. The boards can be visited as many times as you want to all day long. Also I try to read as much as possible to try to help myself.
Visit often, start a journal, it really helps.

Annie

[Kristine]

Hiya. :there: I bet all of us can relate to your post, to some degree. Many of us have gone through periods of doing well, then shooting ourselves in the foot.

Admins, feel free to move me if I posted in the wrong forum!

Don't worry about it. :) Usually, when we move posts, it's so it'll be read by your "target audience" and you'll get the help you need.

I'm almost not sure how to respond to your post... how severe is the bingeing? Are you really out of control, like a space cadet, almost as if you're watching yourself do it in the third person? Or is it not that bad?

Your biggest issue, IMO, isn't the bingeing, it's your body image. At 5'6", you're not overweight at all. Forget about losing weight. Stay off the scale. Do low carb so you can get your bingeing under control. And start now. As Bawdywench says, "If not now, when?" A year from now, "tomorrow" will have been 364 days ago and you could still be telling yourself, with an extra 20 or 30 lbs, "I'll start tomorrow."

Start now.

[stacyfitz]

Hi There,

It sounds like you have a sense of what you get out of the bingeing/treat eating. (Fleeting pleasure, treats...) Would it be helpful to identify a little more what you get out of overeating or not commiting to a LC lifestyle/those pound you want to lose?

It is good to be gentle with yourself if you can. You are making choices for some reason and it seems like, usually, we have some positive intention for making the choices we do. (Even if it is the fleeting pleasure from overeating!)

When you think about being at your goal and being fit do you feel too much pressure? Would you have to be 'perfect' then? What else would that mean for you?

I wish you peace today and the space to relax a little and enjoy yourself. Breathe!

Take care,

Stacy

[cs_carver]

And if you can't stop eating, binge on LC. Part of what's happening in your head is carb-hangover. I can't begin to control my moods when my blood sugar is surging and crashing. LC eating will stop that, and then I can get back to "normal" LC eating.

Sugar calls more sugar. It's about a three-day withdrawal. If you've ever asked someone to stop smoking, you are asking them to do something worse than your getting off sugar.

Drink a lot of clean water--watch out for the diet drinks and fake foods; they have their own trigger power.

Good luck.

[IvannaBFit]

Hi,

Hang in there. I feel the same way and have been acting the same way for about the same amount of time! We could be binge-eating twins. :(

I feel sooooooo depressed and in a downward spiral. Don't know what to do. Please know that I'm thinking about you and that I know how you feel. You're not alone.

<3

[BBQgal]

Hi,
I forgot to tell you about a great book to read when you feel out of control. It is Twenty four hour a day by Hazelden book co.
www.hazelden.com they have great stuff to help. I am thinking about keeping a 2nd copy in my car to keep me out of the drive up window.

Annie

[scthgharpy]

I got another one to keep you from the fast food window: fast food nation. YUCKOLA!

[petersn78]

Hi there,
I've started a thread called the food addicts sanctuary, and would love to see you there:) The support is great, and I try and post lots of things to motivate and inspire. Hope to see you there:) Hugs naomi

[BBQgal]

Hi LC14,
Just dropped by to say "HI" and hope you are doing better.

Annie

[k8ty]

Ok, so, I read your post LC14, and I felt like you were saying everything I have been saying for the past few years to myself. I did atkins for about a month last year, fell off, gained about 20lbs, and felt even more horrible.

Now I've found, being vegetarian, that atkins is a little too restrictive for me. I've found the perfect "diet cocktail" that is working well for me. I haven't binged since I started. I feel so cliche in saying this: if I can do it, I know you can.

Like you, I was not much overweight if at all when I started, just unhappy with my body image, I wanted to slim down for sports, and now look where I am...yeah. We just have to know that the choices we make now affect us for the rest of our life, and help determine how long that life will be.

[CurlyQJew]

LC14~
i am really happy i stumbled upon your post. I started to read it and literally I wrote the same thing,adressing the same concerns, the same feelings just yesterday. I would love to talk to you about it sometime, it just felt really good to know im not alone. I am so afraid I won't lose the weight again, and that it will only get worse...I just dont feel myself, i dont want to get out of bed, i actually missed a week of classes because i didnt want people to see me...so, just so you know...you aren't alone..maybe we can get through it together

[LaraBee]

Hey yall, I've adopted a new username now! was formerly LC14.. I just want to say thank you to everyone, SO MUCH! It's so good to know others are out there dealing with the same thing, and have advice to offer!

I've been binge free for a little over 2 weeks now ( YAY!), and am on Day 3 of strict induction.. Not very long, but already starting to feel better.. mentally, at least..

I definitely know what my problem is/was.. I want to see IMMEDIATE results, and when I don't, it's like 'OK, so now I'm still fat AND I'm not getting to eat the foods that I want'.. which is utterly silly! But when you're feeling low like that, it's hard to feel differently, ya know? Which is why I would revert to the whole 'Ok, well, this will be my LAST day of eating whatever I want, because it will make me happy, and then I can start my LC WOL..' Unfortunately, that LAST day was everyday,, and well, you know the vicious cycle!'

I know the next week and a half will be the hardest for me, but I'm feeling really good about it.. Once I start to see the weight actually coming off, I get really inspired- it's just the initial few days of standstill that are really tough for me! I've also decided to swear off the scale until induction is over, which I think will be a really good thing!

So Day 3 and going strong! woohoo! lol.. I'll keep yall updated!

Thanks again!!

[CurlyQJew]

good thinkin! and i am takin your advice im not touchin my scale

[BBQgal]

Hi LaraBee,
I am glad you are back and doing better!

Annie

[psychnurse]

Glad to see you doing better. Hang in there!

[kuukuu]

usually I binge when I'm angry or pre-menstrual. Please learn this rule that I've made for myself in LCing, Thou shalt not beat thyself up. Failure happens to everyone for a variety of reasons. Let me encourage you to step up to the challenge again. We're all here, we're all going through the same thing you are and we'll stand with you. Just call on us. One more thing, if I lose 2 lbs in a week, I treat myself to a new makeup item or a bottle of finger nail polish. If I complete 5 miles in a week, I rent a movie. Go ahead and put a carrot out there for yourself. I won't tell!