jareddo10
Wed, Mar-23-05, 02:06
Ok, I really blew it today. I am so ashamed of myself. I started the day being really good. I just had cottage cheese. I was so proud of myself. I thought it was going to be so easy to get back on the wagon. Then lunch rolled around. We ate at a chinese buffet! The most tempting place on earth for me. I actually started out being really good though. I just had a chicken and cegetable stir fry. Then I had some teriyaki chicken which has a little sugar but not too much. Then I had a little fruit for dessert. So I was doing really good. Actually, excellent for a chinese buffet. Then, my sister got an almond cookie. I thought it wouldn't hurt to tke a bite so I did. Then I thought it wouldn't hurt to just take one more bite. It all went down hill from there. I couldn't stay away from carbs the rest of the day until now. But that's only because I'm so stuffed I feel like throwing up.
I feel like such a failure. I was cheating all weekend and today was the worst. I'm afraid to step on the scale because I'm scared to death that I gained back the weight that took me almost six months to lose. I'm also afraid that I won't be able to stop eating carbs and I'll be back up to 210 again eventually. I feel so bad right now that I probably won't even eat tomorrow. Then, I'll just go back to carb bingeing again in a couple days. I feel completely helpless. I know I have complete control over what goes in my mouth and I can't say anything like I couldn't help it but that dosen't make it any easier.
I really need help to get back on the wagon soon, like tomorrow.
I feel like such a failure. I was cheating all weekend and today was the worst. I'm afraid to step on the scale because I'm scared to death that I gained back the weight that took me almost six months to lose. I'm also afraid that I won't be able to stop eating carbs and I'll be back up to 210 again eventually. I feel so bad right now that I probably won't even eat tomorrow. Then, I'll just go back to carb bingeing again in a couple days. I feel completely helpless. I know I have complete control over what goes in my mouth and I can't say anything like I couldn't help it but that dosen't make it any easier.
I really need help to get back on the wagon soon, like tomorrow.