Phoebe2
Mon, Apr-19-04, 11:04
OK, I am hypothyroid, pretty sure pcos as I have severe pms and ovary pain 24/7, I have fibro, chronic fatigue , interstitial cystitis, and a inflamatory bowel disease. I am 28, female, no kids, and miserable and on disability. I have consulted many doctors on weight nad I get the blank stare every time.
While I will admit i love choclate nad do eat when I am angry. I shoulnd't be this weight. Anything I eat I go into spasms and most always it eliminates itself to the bathroom within 10 minutes of eating it (ibs). I have tried every diet some for 6 weeks some for a few years (I AM a very determined girl and am NOT lazy). On every diet I lsoe 7 pounds the first week (this is my water weight and means nothing).. I have subsequentially lost NOTHING else.
-Atkins STRICT ZERO carbs for a few months 0 weight lost
-low carb gained weight
-slimfast/low cal 1200 cals I did lsot 3 pounds in a month and did this for a few years (I was at the time almost 300 pounds so that is competley ridiculous and with working out)
-900 cals.. i can maintain at this I THINK maybe though i gained 2 pounds this week on it.
-hard working out (which for me is an hour and with fibro i literally sometimes dont have the strength to lift my glass of water so this was before my muscles went to complete mush) I would gain 3 pounds a week NOT muscle at 300 pounds!
I am beyond frustrated, humilated, and sad. I really need some GOOD advice. I try buying brown things I try only meat things. I am just so depressed cuz it is NOT from my lack of trying.
Right now I am only on prevacid and quercetin. (we are hoping prevacid will make my guts stop spasming and keep my food inside longer than a few minutes.. of course there are weeks when i wont go to the bathroom at all sigh and that bloats me upw here it hurts to walk.
I am a complete mess. But I figure if you are gonna be sick.. you should at least look cute to gain the sympathy you need and give your husband a reason to stare at you laying in bed everyday. OK i know that sounds stupid.. but why can't I at least be a normal weigh. i dont want to be 99 just NORMAL.. right now I would even settle for under 200. I am already so sad not being able to go for walks or go tot he store why do I ahve to be fat too.. and no dont ask me to g to the gym cuz i cant even a wheelchair cant help cuz it just hurts and i am so sick from all this disease. it has to be through diet
IF ANYONE HAS ANY ISEAS FOR A DIET FOR ME THAT WILL ACTUALLY WORK>> I BEG OF YOU PLEASE MSG ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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my journal for the day:
i wouldnt been even steven but last night I gained 2 pounds .. ive been only eating prob 1000 cals a day all week so im a little pissed at my body. I can't even handle food anymore. I started taking prevacid but its not helping though my bladder feels kinda good on it so I think Ill get him to prescribe it as I am just on samples right now.
Just makes me so damned mad. I cant eat anything like a meal without being in intense brain numbing spasms followed by bathroom time. NOTHING stays in my body.. how the HECK is it staying fat??? I had a 10 piece chicken nugget thing and it was too much for my body and it immediately left in a most painful way (yes we had mcdonalds cuz sunday is my boy's day off dieting for him which he lost 4 pounds this week).
I have asked every doctor about the weight thing but they ignore me. Most I got was a nurse telling me eat an egg when you're hungry. I know people lsoe ont he Atkins but its just calorie restriction also. I don't have issues with pigging out (ok sometimes I do like some lady pissed me off and I had cheesecake but not much else that day so even then I was eating less than a normal dieter). My boy is on the atkins but I swear he only eats 200 calories a day. And with the way a meal immediately leaves my body I am probably getting zero nutrition and even fewer calories per day.
Its like a viscious circle. I get so sick I can't eat for a few weeks at ALL and force down a saltine or something. First week I lose 7 pounds ( I ALWAYS lose 7 pounds first week of any diet so I know I have 7 pounds of water with me always).. then week two nothing.. week three i can finally eat or I am so damned hungry i try to get in more like 800 cals a day and BAM I gain. I know eat more. that doesn't really work either. There is soemthing very very wrong with my metabolism that or I have a 100 pound tumor in my tummy (I saw that on maury where they thought this little girl was fat and she ended up having a 70 pound tumor in her gut).
I know hypothyroidism and PCOS people have the worst times losing weight and I do think I ahve both nad both say eat more protien and i even stopped being a vegetarian for 12 years to eat protien but it aint helping.
I am frustrated. I still have this big event coming up at the end of summer but no way in heck am I going at this weight and theres no game plan except complete starvation.. which i also cant do because of this stomach thing i have and i have to have a tiny bite every few minutes otherwise I get super unbelievably nauseas. I really havent a clue as to what game plan I should be working on and I know i should just let it go and get fat as long as I stay healthy but thats so depressing
over and out
-me
While I will admit i love choclate nad do eat when I am angry. I shoulnd't be this weight. Anything I eat I go into spasms and most always it eliminates itself to the bathroom within 10 minutes of eating it (ibs). I have tried every diet some for 6 weeks some for a few years (I AM a very determined girl and am NOT lazy). On every diet I lsoe 7 pounds the first week (this is my water weight and means nothing).. I have subsequentially lost NOTHING else.
-Atkins STRICT ZERO carbs for a few months 0 weight lost
-low carb gained weight
-slimfast/low cal 1200 cals I did lsot 3 pounds in a month and did this for a few years (I was at the time almost 300 pounds so that is competley ridiculous and with working out)
-900 cals.. i can maintain at this I THINK maybe though i gained 2 pounds this week on it.
-hard working out (which for me is an hour and with fibro i literally sometimes dont have the strength to lift my glass of water so this was before my muscles went to complete mush) I would gain 3 pounds a week NOT muscle at 300 pounds!
I am beyond frustrated, humilated, and sad. I really need some GOOD advice. I try buying brown things I try only meat things. I am just so depressed cuz it is NOT from my lack of trying.
Right now I am only on prevacid and quercetin. (we are hoping prevacid will make my guts stop spasming and keep my food inside longer than a few minutes.. of course there are weeks when i wont go to the bathroom at all sigh and that bloats me upw here it hurts to walk.
I am a complete mess. But I figure if you are gonna be sick.. you should at least look cute to gain the sympathy you need and give your husband a reason to stare at you laying in bed everyday. OK i know that sounds stupid.. but why can't I at least be a normal weigh. i dont want to be 99 just NORMAL.. right now I would even settle for under 200. I am already so sad not being able to go for walks or go tot he store why do I ahve to be fat too.. and no dont ask me to g to the gym cuz i cant even a wheelchair cant help cuz it just hurts and i am so sick from all this disease. it has to be through diet
IF ANYONE HAS ANY ISEAS FOR A DIET FOR ME THAT WILL ACTUALLY WORK>> I BEG OF YOU PLEASE MSG ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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my journal for the day:
i wouldnt been even steven but last night I gained 2 pounds .. ive been only eating prob 1000 cals a day all week so im a little pissed at my body. I can't even handle food anymore. I started taking prevacid but its not helping though my bladder feels kinda good on it so I think Ill get him to prescribe it as I am just on samples right now.
Just makes me so damned mad. I cant eat anything like a meal without being in intense brain numbing spasms followed by bathroom time. NOTHING stays in my body.. how the HECK is it staying fat??? I had a 10 piece chicken nugget thing and it was too much for my body and it immediately left in a most painful way (yes we had mcdonalds cuz sunday is my boy's day off dieting for him which he lost 4 pounds this week).
I have asked every doctor about the weight thing but they ignore me. Most I got was a nurse telling me eat an egg when you're hungry. I know people lsoe ont he Atkins but its just calorie restriction also. I don't have issues with pigging out (ok sometimes I do like some lady pissed me off and I had cheesecake but not much else that day so even then I was eating less than a normal dieter). My boy is on the atkins but I swear he only eats 200 calories a day. And with the way a meal immediately leaves my body I am probably getting zero nutrition and even fewer calories per day.
Its like a viscious circle. I get so sick I can't eat for a few weeks at ALL and force down a saltine or something. First week I lose 7 pounds ( I ALWAYS lose 7 pounds first week of any diet so I know I have 7 pounds of water with me always).. then week two nothing.. week three i can finally eat or I am so damned hungry i try to get in more like 800 cals a day and BAM I gain. I know eat more. that doesn't really work either. There is soemthing very very wrong with my metabolism that or I have a 100 pound tumor in my tummy (I saw that on maury where they thought this little girl was fat and she ended up having a 70 pound tumor in her gut).
I know hypothyroidism and PCOS people have the worst times losing weight and I do think I ahve both nad both say eat more protien and i even stopped being a vegetarian for 12 years to eat protien but it aint helping.
I am frustrated. I still have this big event coming up at the end of summer but no way in heck am I going at this weight and theres no game plan except complete starvation.. which i also cant do because of this stomach thing i have and i have to have a tiny bite every few minutes otherwise I get super unbelievably nauseas. I really havent a clue as to what game plan I should be working on and I know i should just let it go and get fat as long as I stay healthy but thats so depressing
over and out
-me