Anyone else bummed by "temptation gone" thread?

[cs_carver]

Looked at that thread--on General LC--this morning. And there have been times when I could have added to it cheerfully. But not today, not this week. Not after feeling more attuned to all the people who have contributed to the bulimia thread over here.

Not sure where to go with this. LC works for me, certainly way better than anything else ever did. Even my worst binge today is way better than it ever used to be. But it's still there and the skinny jeans are tight today and I hate myself and when I'm in the food, I can't stop. Every now and then I realize it's one more food sensitivity--the latest was a touch of corn syrup hiding in sausage--but it feels like I'm in this tiny little corner where I can eat romaine and beef and pork and that's about it.

hell, I'll never be able to get married if that's the only thing I can have in the house.

(Yeah, isn't that the depression kicking in? Ugly. And probably food-pollution-related, but it sure feels true from here. Esp. just before V.Day as my current BF and I start to come to terms with the impending end of our relationship.)

God, I wish I could figure out what the biochemical triggers / markers / levels / whatever are. THere are times when it is so straightforward and easy, and there are others when I'm in the grip of something so overwhelming I feel like I barely exist as an independent person. I believe most of my high-carb binges are blood-sugar driven; why do I keep coming back to "weak-willed, failure, lazy" when I can't stop the overeating that still dogs my heels?

days like this I think it will never end.

[Engine9]

You sound like me, as far as the temptation thread I really wasn't bummed, just realized for that moment they felt in control. Please don't let it bum you either if you can. We have to take it all one minute, one food, one decision at a time its just to bad that we are so hard on ourselves. I always experience moments of grand self control and in an instant it is lost. But we are humans. The impending end to a relationship is never good for the soul. When my mom quit smoking years ago she didn't take it one day at a time she took it one minute at a time. I wish I could say something that would help you feel a little better but know that there are thousands of people struggling with their demons everyday, myself included but you battle through because you are worth the fight.No matter what happens with your food choices remember that you may crave and then eat a sugary food, but maybe tommorrow you won't. It never seems to end but thats a very good thing, the alternative is not. Good Luck

[neo_crone]

Even my worst binge today is way better than it ever used to be.

So you are succeeding in improving your self-knowledge and eating habits ;-) Well done!!!
Cling to that thought, and feel good about it. Don't dwell on past failures or binges, but on recent triumphs. It keeps me going through my darker moments. Keep on going in the right direction; the speed does not matter.

hugs

neo_crone

[Zuleikaa]

And realize it's a chemical trigger setting you off!!! It's not you!!! Learn how you feel when you are "normal" and develop a system to clean your system out and overcome the chemical trigger if and when it occurs.

[adkpam]

It's perfectly natural for you to feel bad with a breakup looming. Instead of anesthetizing yourself with food (I know, I used to do it too) you can think your way out of it.
Remember that food only makes you feel better for a little while, and then you have two things to feel lousy about. Of course you know this, the trick is to REMEMBER it when you find yourself reaching for more food when what you need is a talk with a friend, a long walk, or some mourning time.
You have been doing very well, and you will feel well again. Just don't let this get too bad and derail you. Seek help if it gets too bad, don't wait.

[Karen]

Well, I have to admit that I'm always amazed when it's so simple for some people and that they can be so normal with food. Eat when you're hungry, stop eating when full and don't think about it until you're hungry again.

I look at it as being a drug addict, and I've chosen to recover from my addiction in the same way an addict would, one thought, one deed and one mouthful at a time.

I heard a great, inspirational quote last week...

"Slow learners were never meant to do it alone"

Karen